Okay so basically the other day i was scrolling through facebook and his profile came up he is my older cousin from my stepdad the time that this happened was when i was around the age of 10 he started out with touching at first but eventually things got worse over time i knew it was wrong what he was doing but whenever i spoke out about it i was ignored ive been molested/raped/abused by many people throughout my life so theres that i also have never felt any attraction towards him for i am lesbian but i found that when i was looking at pictures of him i started to get turned on and eventually ended up masturbating to the pictures of him

i just needed to say this so it would stop eating at my mind im into cnc and i like it rough so that plays part into it but i just feel wrong