I'm usually a calm, stoic guy who doesn't care about anything not even looking for a partner. I just come to work to do my job then bye.

Then there's this coworker of mine, a girl which I have neutral feeling towards her same as towards anyone, I never find her pretty or cute, to me she just another person in the office. Plus I also thought she hates me cuz she never really spoke to me (I'm still new like 5 months in) and when I text her about work she just react to my text instead of replying. Hence I thought okay, maybe she doesn't like me.

But recently I have a moment with her where she attend the event I was managing (she was invited) and she didn't know anyone there but me so she just with me the whole time and we have a moment. I've never talk this much with her (or any of my coworkers), we sat together and eat together and spend the whole day together. And I didn't think too much about it until....

I can't stop thinking about her...and that is the moment I know I'm fucked... I feel so embarrassed...not in the way that she's ugly or anything but in the way that she's soo pretty now I'm embarrassed that me.... falling for her...like, I'm so stupid, there's no way she's gonna like me.

At the same time we have to move our office and now we sit opposite each other where we can see each other face every dayy and that cool guy now is just a blushing idiots who keeps flustering. We talked more now and she asked my help and...idk...i just feel stupid and want to slap myself. I just don't feel she's gonna like me.

Okay that's all sorry for rambling.