I was often betrayed in my past relationships so I developed this chronic lack of trust and hyper sensibility. This explains why I am easily offended by my boyfriend’s behavior, and I always thought he was patient with it, and maybe he is, but last time we had an argument he cried. He said “I am okay, it is going to pass, it’s just that we’re so different sometimes” and it broke my heart. So I decided to take it easy.

My boyfriend has two specific “flaws” that I don’t like. One: he is always late. Two: he changes his mind very easily. These are the things that make my blood boil. Don’t get me wrong, I am not abusive, I never took it out on him or something. I just politely vocalize my unsatisfaction. Most of the time he takes it easy but it undeniably kills the vibe for both of us. I stay even more unsatisfied and he gets awkward.

This weekend we decided to see each other. He was 1 hour late. I got really angry but decided to keep it to myself. The results? We had the best time ever and I even forgot about my anger. It’s not just suppressing my emotions, it’s letting them have space inside me while I try to remember that this is just the way he is, that he is so much better than one or two flaws.

I am really enjoying my rewards for being patient. I honestly feel better even on other areas of my life cause I am practicing this patience on them as well. This is gonna sound psychotic but it’s like I am filled with God. Like I am giving up control and just letting life simply be. That way I enjoy it so much more.