Just posting because today I am grateful to be alive. It hasn't always been this way. I am here and alive and thriving. I survived and most importantly I kept me alive until today.

I am kind of proud of me today and the things I have accomplished. I have done some good in this world and some bad but on balance I think I have been a positive. I have been helpful when I could and I have had feedback from some thanking me. That being said, I am also sure that I have done some negative, and for that I am sorry.

I have survived a heart attack. I have been completely burned out and incapable of working. I have managed to survive and to come out thriving. I have real friends in my life today and I try to be a friend as well as have them.

I am doing my best to accept myself today and to acknowledge that past me is as much me as present me and we both nourish future me. I am grateful today that as resilient as I can be, I do not have to be.

I hope I haven't bored you of you have read this. I'm trying my best to be me today, some days I come up short.