So I was debating about going to the large city near by or explore nearby towns in my suburb. The thing was... I took a fucking cornicopia (my autocorrect is on crack but markdown fixed it) of Russian nootropics\\whatever. The fucked up thing was for the first time in my life, I felt normal and great (I am on the autism spectrum). I would mention some of the things but some of them are controversial thus I won't mention as some are habit forming and it is bad enough I am taking it .. but I feel so normal.

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Any how so I decide to visit my friend and his evening date. Except she is real flirty and buys me a shot (9 hours after I took the cocktail). Long story short got her but also flirts with my friend (I asked if he minded , hoes before bros). I also had a chick grind up on my leg when she was playing pool. I tried to get her details but a friend of hers kept cockblocking me.also had a chick stare my way but was preoccupied. Even after the chick that gave me her number and was flirting with my friend she kept saying we need to do X and Y (she just moved to the state I live in). I also talked with some guy pals I met before and swapped details

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I really don't give a shit about my friend and her as , well , this cocktail made me focused on my hustle and so I am not looking for a dovey gf that will be mine forever yada yada. Maybe I am jade after a separation from my partner and seeing a bunch of high profiles divorces but outside kids I have come to the conclusion spinning plates seems like the way to go. At any rate I am not sure about taking a cocktail of Russian nootropics\drugs to manage my autism, but all I know is I feel like a rockstar (and not just because of the chick). I am hoping with time maybe this mindset can be etched in my mind. I hope I did not cross the line with the Russian basket of things, but I feel great and I have the drive I had at 20.