So I was all bright eyed and busy tailed after work and gym. I was ready to go to City Creek Mall! (Cost a pretty penny to build but I digress). I went to exercise at 5.30 pm and got going to the mall around 6.40. I wanted to go to Chick Fil A any how. I was flying high from asking the Hispanic girl out and was super ripped.

On the bus I saw a black girl. She was super cute and we made eye contact. I swapped seats to get closer but on closer inspection I could not tell her age so I held off. Long story short she went to the tattoo shop. I think part of this is the fact I have aspergers and have a hard to processing faces. At any rate I get to City Creek and all of the few chicks that I want to open have airpods in or are with family ot their bfs. There was one I smiled to (who I believe was with her family) who told another something along the lines of he is not my type. Ughh.

So I go down stairs to Chick Fil A. A black woman comes to the line and asks if that is where the line starts. I said yes and said long lines have seemed to be a common theme for me lately. I go to check and she has a wedding ring on. Fast forward after my order and I see she has a kid and a man with her. She looked pretty good for her age (guess either 30's or 40's). After a bit I walked around and admired the Temple being remodeled and then decide to check out an Irish pub ( that is apparently an Australian pub now). I got fucking drunk and plan to watch Resevoir Dogs. The Australian pub has a House Night tomorrow and only a 5 dollar cover. I might sop up some cheap PBR and see what the gods have in store. I plan to go out to the club Friday with a friend and Saturday by myself ( I am not sure if I should hit the same club both nights or spread out as Saturday seems to be more busy). I have 2 places but the one is closer to the club (about 7 miles). If I can get 2 houses off my investing acumen and work my way up with jobs I will get fucking laid.

(I almost forgot the back story to how this came about. My ex partner cheated on me and did other toxic things. I had been preparing for this and started working out. I am down almost 40 pounds (245) and I am 5'11 , but plan to get down to 185. I am in my late 20s and honestly I just wanted a "normal" life, but thrn this happened. I also tried to reach out to my ex before this ex and she gave me a lecture on improving myself blah blah. So both my exes are jokes (my ex partner wanted to get back together but is she fucking kidding?). This leaves me in a spot I have not been in about 10 years. I would usually just go overseas but dating sites are jokes for that plus covid and so all I want is a casual fuck buddy as I really can't take the dating pool seriousl, even as I respect the nuclear family I am not going to keep doing the same thing and expect the same results). Sorry if I seem a bit jaded but I am hoping tomorrow brings more opportunity than today has. The one decent shot I did have I fucked up. Heres to a better tomorrow and me not being a pussy.