i have figured out a lot about life, things that used to scare me and seemed infinitely complex, one thing that isn't on this list is the crush. i cannot put a finger on it, at least my experiences and attitude towards the subject. there are women i see everyday that send me and many men alike's jaws dropping, accompanied with a rich personality and wit. yet i find myself infatuated(?) with this woman who attends my university, generic hair, generic style, generic personality ( a little on the stupid side, says she wants to be amish etc. ) honestly a bore, but i have fallen for her. it must be the eyes, she has fucking ridiculously good-looking eyes, that's my guess. i wander how i found myself here, it started with me approaching her cause of the music she was playing and we had a mutual taste. but i've spoken to many woman about many things and i never end up having a 'crush' on them, maybe i do know the answer but i'm not digging deep enough, anyways i'm feeling like shit (unrelated) so i decided to write this.