So here's the thing, finding the right person to have a relationship with is hard enough, but finding that person when you have weird kinks is even harder. Ideally, a good relationship is a partnership between best friends. You have similar interest that you can share in common, you support each other's hobbies and passions, you communicate well and support eachother emotionally. There's friendship, love, and partnership. There are always struggles, and relationships are always work, but good partners do the work and put in the time and energy for eachother. Now, that's hard to find in this world, but it can be done. Add in the layer of sexual compatibility and things can get even more difficult. Add in weird kinks or particularly unusual interests, and your odds of finding the right person go down dramatically. It's easy for me to find someone who wants long candle lit dinners, walks by the beach, hours spent playing eachothers favorite games and watching eachothers favorite movies. Cooking together, dancing together. Romantic people exist. Romantic nerdy people exist. It's also easy to find kinky people, slutty people, people who love having a lot of sex with a lot of guys, people who love being filled up with cum and who genuinely enjoy being slutty, who can take pleasure in dirty and weird things. It's not so common to find someone who's both, and usually when I find those people they are already in a relationship or married. Finding someone like that who's single and actually interested in the sort of relationship I am is difficult and time consuming. So much so that here I am, still looking. So, what do I want? I want a partner I can share it all with. Our hobbies, our thoughts and feelings, our bumps and bruises. Someone who accepts the fact that I have seen some bad shit in my life, and maybe someone who's seen some bad shit in her life. Maybe someone who I can have those conversations with about all the shit we've been through, someone I can pour my love and support into. Maybe even someone who wants to do the same for me. Someone I can play video games with and watch horror movies with. Cuddle with in bed while listening to podcasts.... But also someone I can trust to have a lot of hot amazing cheating sex all the time, and tell me all about it. Someone I can watch fuck other men and hold and kiss and cuddle with while her insides get pounded as deep as she can take it. Someone who loves calling me up to make me listen to her moans as she fucks another guy. Who sends me picks of her fucking while I'm working. Someone who loves to see how long it takes me to notice the smell of her sex when I walk in the room, or let's me find out by taste when I lick her. I want her to be a cheating slut who loves everything about being a cheating slut, and loves sharing it with me. I want her to love knowing that she's making love to me full of another mans cum. I want it to turn her on knowing that her cheating sex drives me insane, and I want her to love that I get both more romantic and turned on when she gets more slutty. The sluttier she gets, the deeper I fall in love with her. I'm built that way, its just who I am. And I want that to make her very happy, as she would make me very happy. I want all of that, and maybe that's too much to ask for from one person, but its what I'm here to find. All of the love and friendship I'm missing in my life, with a great big side order of dirty cheating slut. Is there anyone who feels like that could be them? Am I grasping for straws here, or does this maybe sound like you?