Why the fuck has my health destroyed my ability to be physical. I opened my relationship with my wife because I felt I had to in order to at least let her have some bit of sex but now she spends multiple nights per week out getting fucked by guys and I physically can’t enjoy the same. I’ve contemplated ending it all several times. Im so sick to my stomach about it I puke offen. I would t have a problem with her going out if I could actually do the same. Im allowed to try but 1) women don’t trust men that say there are in an open relationship 2) men don’t give a shit if women are married. So she has no problems. 3) my diabetes has given me ED for nearly 15 years. 4) an injury has cause my dick to shrink and now I can barely feel anything.

I just spent the weekend cleaning while she went to several parties. Im not a fucking cuck. I don’t want this.

Im glad I don’t own a gun.