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What is it about us that sabotages love
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I traveled across the country to be with my Scorpio moon fiancé who I’ve known for 15 years. I am also a Scorpio moon.

We’ve both had mommy issues and abandonment issues. However, I have taken the time to work through them by choosing to be single for a couple years. Him on the other hand got into a super toxic marriage. The fallout has aged him terribly and he’s more paranoid than I remember. Horrible custody issues and narc ex. I wanted to be there for him and his daughter post divorce and be supportive in every way possible. We’re the perfect match with all the boxes checked, so it felt very right like it was finally our time to be together.

Things were going great then two nights ago we stayed up talking all night, sharing all vulnerabilities, we partied together, had the BEST time we’ve ever had. He told me I’m the first woman he’s ever been able to talk to. I believe it.

I felt a wonderful level up energy. We were going to get married soon and be there for each other forever. The struggle is finally over so I thought.

The next day his energy is completely different, increased paranoia, asking me stoic questions, completely different person. I asked him if the vulnerabilities freaked him out. He completely deflected. It broke down from there and I asked to be flown home. I’m leaving and I can’t help but feel like he either sabotaged the first real love he’s ever felt, or I said something that evening that totally scared him off.

Either way I’m grateful I got to finally put my heart out there and at least try. I suppose I’m venting but any kind words from my fellow Scorpio moons would help right now. ❤️‍🩹

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Two questions if I may:

Have you considered experiencing this where the other party knows this is something you internally crave, so you get the used feeling but you also know they love you? Like role play (I do this. I know I’m loved very much but I enjoy this kind of play and sometimes cannot get off if we’re making love traditionally).

And what could that person do, if anything, to help you other than just not go away? Like sure you will push them away, but if they stick to you like Velcro is there a point where you feel more comfortable? Not judging but I do the same thing with people and sometimes I don’t even like someone unless they’ve left me and I can’t get them back, but that is moreso due to the Cap moon processing time. I figure out I like them, and then they’re gone because I took too long and needed emotional space in the meantime.

Not a Scorpio moon btw but I feel you.

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