It's been hard to put into words my delusions but after speaking to my dad who is clueless on the whole mental health thing he managed to put into words what I couldn't. My delusions are like being possessed without knowing it. Since starting Risperidone I hadn't had any delusions for about 2.5 months. Then just over the weekend realised I'd be in a delusion for about 2 weeks. It was a productive delusion, making me apply for any and all roles I fit the bill on regardless of where they were, as well as applying me to tertiary education. Those aren't bad things, besides the fact I got a few steps closer than I'd liked to throwing $1000 down the drain for education. But upon speaking with mum realised I'd be having thoughts of suicide even though my depression is quite at bay. The thoughts were starting to have me make plans and shit. So I called the emergency line and was like yoooo I think I've been in a delusion for the past 2 weeks. Long story short they just said go to sleep and come to hospital if it gets worse. They were meant to book me in to see the psych today for an emergency appt but I haven't heard anything all day. Which is cool as I very, very fortunately managed to get in to see my private psych tomorrow. But yea I don't have anyone to tell so thought I'd just make a post. Thank you for reading!