Sorry for the not so rant title and I need to vent thank you for reading if you do. But basically I was hospitalised for a month by a public hospital psych (in Aus) who hospitalised me on their last day as they were going on a 6 month holiday to the UK. All was fine, lovely place I was admitted to, we left on good terms, and better yet the private hospital psych who was treating me got me on Risperidone and it treated my positive symptoms flawlessly. The negative symptoms eased but not removed by treating the positive symptoms. Basically his approach was the psychosis is causing the depression not the depression causing the psychosis which is what my public hospital psych was trying to do. Anyways I get out of hospital to a new public hospital psych as I see them as an outpatient. He's awful. Like god awful. He immediately threw me on 300mg xr Quetiapine because we were using up to 300mg in 50mg doses to treat anxiety. All was fine until I had prolonged erections and very vivid dreams. He then was talking about wanting to throw me on lithium and all sorts of end of the line type treatment options. As if we have tried every single antidepressant/antianxiety/antipsychotic. ECT and what not. Today I was like the Quetiapine is causing me these side effects plus it's limiting my ability to drive. Oh no definitely not it's the Risperidone we have to reduce it. I said no way Jose. I got formally diagnosed with schizophrenia in the private hospital and this psych also disagrees with the diagnosis. I was ready to punch the guy in the face. Then went on to say no you cannot change case workers because you drew the short straw of living where you live. Even tho my reason for wanting to change was to someone full time vs my current case worker being Thursday and Friday only. I needed the support available all week is what I was trying to say but kept getting rudely cutoff. This all happened today hence the somewhat incoherent rambling. I do apologise but I was fuming. I've finally calmed down enough to write and tell somebody.

Besides all of this im fortunate enough that I get to see the private hospital psych as a private outpatient. Which means I have to pay for it. But at this point I think it's time to get off the freebie train and part ways with the current psych that took over from the good public hospital psych. I have that appt in a week. He was the one who diagnosed me and everything and threw me on the Quetiapine immediate release 25mg tabs to take prn for anxiety. He also got to see me for a whole month straight. So I trust his judgement. If he says the Risperidone is causing the side effects that my current psych thinks is causing them and not the Quetiapine then that's fine. But atleast my schizophrenia won't be just shoved to the side as if I don't have it.

So yea I wasn't going to post this but now I've written out I will. Thank you for reading, I know it was long and rambly. I feel better getting it off my chest. Thanks all