I dont know whats going on. Ive been off for about three weeks a li5tle over half of that was in the hospital. When i was leaving the ward i was pretty stable i felt good. I had just got my shizoaffective diagnosis but i also was now on meds. I felt stable. But i didnt feel ready to go back to work. As the week at home has progressed ive felt more and more not stable. Ill be fine for a few hours but ill little moments where things get rough emotionally , i get really anxious, and my thoughts start running. I somewhat able to distract myself but it really only delays more than prevents. I tried to go back to work yesterday. I barely made it an hour, i had a rolling anxiety attack basically from the minute i set foot there. I barely interacted with anybody. it was not good. I then spent almost the entierety of the day at my moms place. I have an appointment with my psych this afternoon. But i cant shake this nagging thought that i need to go back to the hospital. But it feels like the easy way out. And its hard to push myself to do it.