I am so pathetic I can't think straight when I have to write things like these. I can't even stop touching myself and cum over and over thinking about the things I am typing. So the quality of the following text is going to be mediocre but I know a good ton of you will enjoy it.

I had realised I get turned on from fantasizing about being a cuckson of a slut mother. Even as a practicing dominant. I would order my own submissives as a strict dominant to cuss on my mother. I knew there was a pathetic being inside me and I suppose there's one inside everyone that extracts pleasure from all the wrong things.

One night in heat I searched for all the raceplay discord server could for raceplay and I found the worst place to start off with the kink. It was a server full of maniacs who did not understand shit about safety in kink.

Guess what? It turned me on

I filled all my intros and roles and I knew right away that it wasn't a server I am supposed to be on. No one wanted me there. And that turned me on so much, I could barely keep my hands off my cock. I felt so pathetic. All the women wanted dominant men of one race and I was a submissive male for being Indian. And I knew right away that my mere existence creeped them out. Even though I was completely civil and nice at all times, the people made me feel like I am lower than them for real. And I tell you, none of that activity on there was play pretend. It was all real. They truly thought of me as an inferior because of my race.

I never knew I could be so problematic. Going on there turned me on and made my cock numb and soft so fast. I truly felt weak and inferior. Everyone called me names, made fun of me for being an incel and as hot and amazing it was, it was so hard to accept that. It's especially hard to be a male sub in a community. People can't handle the thought of it.

But what I learnt there was I feel so good accepting that women of my race want other men. No one wants me. I am a mere servant of the better people. And then there's reddit. It does things to your mind. I watched hours and hours of reddit porn and watching brown women get fucked by better men like they are fucktoys while none of these women would even talk to me for real was the only thing that worked for my cock. I would get hard only when I see others fuck. I am messed up bad.

Everytime I see a foreigner, I lose it. I think of them as better than me and that I am here just to serve. Or atleast, I think of how much bigger they are than I am. Or how many more women look at them than at me. It's not even inaccurate