I'm 32 and separated from my wife a few months ago. No infidelity or anything, I took the relationship for granted and didn't show the love I should have. I am fucking broken, I miss her everyday and can barely make it through each day. I have so many regrets on what I should have done better and I hate myself more than I care to admit for losing her. Honestly if we didn't have kids I don't know if I'd still be here. I would do anything in the world to be with her again, but I know she's moved on. She texted me this morning saying she wasn't feeling well and on the way to the hospital. I dropped everything, left work and am now sitting next to her on the hospital bed, she's asked me to stay and immediately crawled in next to me. I don't even know why I'm posting, I feel like I'm chasing after someone who can't love me again. But I can't not be here for her and I feel dumb and beyond happy that I can be in this moment. How do you deal with loving someone so much and just wanting them to be happy but know it can't be you?

Edit: Just really want to say thank you to the people who replied. I didn't think anyone would. I really appreciate it but I can't do this anymore