I need to say this somewhere... I'm struggling mentally I have no one to talk to I just feel awkward talking about my feelings I was raised to suppress them and was always told not to be a pussy and real men don't cry but I'm falling apart on the inside I lost my gf of 5 years who I loved very much to someone very close to me and always swore growing up I'd never have to worry about something like that from him but he did it anyway then I meet this other girl who I thought I loved she had kids (growing up I always wanted my own little boy) she had one and in the short time I was with her I got super attached to her son then we found out she was pregnant and I was so excited to finally have a kid of my own but she turned around after telling me and my family about the baby and she went and got an abortion...then she left me right after her abortion I had bought this girl a ring as soon as I found out the great news... I thought she was gonna be the one I had to sell the ring and I used the mo ey to get completely trashed and I overdosed right infront of my father I just feel lost and like a complete Fuck up and I don't know what to do I work with him and every day I try to prove that I'm trying but it's never enough thanks for listening...