I'm a lonely disabled dude in a wheelchair and I'm just.... lost

There's something super comforting about the idea of feeling skin on skin. But I've never felt affection from a woman. I imagine it's a simple pleasure but such a nice one. I imagine hugging a woman and feeling her hug me back - it just gives me this warm, cozy feeling inside just thinking it. But then I remember I can't have that.

And think about how nice it would be to have her running her fingers through my hair. I want that gentle touch that makes me close my eyes and just enjoy the moment. Or if she'd cup my face in her hands - she's saying you're important to her without having to say a word.

And,I want that peaceful feeling of resting my head on her chest. It must be so relaxing, just laying there, listening to her heartbeat. I want to feel safe, cared for, and just... happy.

It's not about anything sexual. It's just about the nice, warm feeling of being close to someone, enjoying their touch and feeling connected. I just need that and it's just so unlikely...