Damn. I'm about at the half way point and I'm stunned.

To review from an earlier post, I have dysthymia / Persistent Depressive Disorder. I do okay with meds and CBT. Occasional double-dip depression which hasn't been completely debilitating. I somehow manage to power through.

I haven't powered through for a week now.

It's very difficult to explain. There's no light switch that's been clicked, no radio that's now on when it was off before. It's more that the lights have been turned up and the static is being tuned out. I don't feel this huge pressure on me like I did a few weeks ago -- and which I've always felt.

More? The negative thoughts -- the endless negative thoughts that nip, yap, and claw -- are so quiet now. Not gone. Not asleep. They are just quiet.

I'm not bouncing with energy... but this is the second weekend I haven't been utterly exhausted from the week. I'm surprised as fuck. And I still have another 20 or so sessions to go.