I used to be very intellectually curious and research all the random topics, take online courses and listen to lectures, play little crossword puzzles, and sudoku and read the news. I used to read and write down my thoughts too.

That all changed at the beginning of this year when my relationship rapidly deteriorated. I ended up breaking up with my boyfriend of 5 years in April and was on the road for months because I had no idea what to do, staying with friends and family. I have my own apartment now and life is stabilizing again but I feel like I've mentally regressed. I go out all the time with friends and drink, I watch 90dayfiance and can't be bothered to read the news or do any of these things or read anything of significance/substance and really understand it or interpret it.

Should I be harder on myself? I keep saying I'm just "recovering" from the absolute mess my life was and that I will "bounce back." Will I? Because now I feel like I'm going backwards as a thinking person and I don't know how to 'want' to do any of those types of things anymore.