Diaryposting. I made a friend in my neighborhood. He is very kind and recused dogs with his husband. I found out him and I both keep bees. He invited my husband and kids and I to come out and see his hive set up. Their property is so beautiful and backdrops into a wooded area. We came over and I saw a carton drawing of someone hog tied on their dining room table as we entered the house. Very jarring they did not take that off the table before having people over- especially kids. Then- I find out his husband professionally creates gay anime porn as a career. They mentioned it so casually I love the gays, my kids call my best gay friend their uncle. However finding out this fact of this man’s “professional life” and out has it put me into a lingering disgust. Then, they invited me to his porn book launching party next month which continued disgust. I googled his work and he is not successful. I wish some people who have discretion. If his Patreon made 10k a month I’d have a little more respect. I haven’t been able to eat a proper meal since then. Evidently I feel bad for my disgust, was I being too judgmental? Or am I conditioned that this is fine?