I can't stop thinking about my husband having extramarital affairs with other women.

before I met you.

It's an obsession that started as an insecurity early on in the relationship and has now grown to be my primary source of imagined arousal during masturbation.

He's given me a few tales, primarily bedtime chatter, and I've heard tales of her college days from acquaintances. I believe that some of it is an attempt to learn the specifics of what he did, as well as the imagination of what he might have done.

I picture all the women who have experienced climaxes with him when I look at him. Although it somewhat diminishes my love for him, gosh, do I stress over it.