I am not going to write a detailed one because there are parts I don't remember, this will be a summary.

TL:DR: I have done MDMA, 2mmc, I have done lsd with mdma, coke, speed, and a lot of other shit. Nothing has ever been close to this euphoria.

At some point I remember I had a whole body orgasm because I ate an olive.

Me and my friend did 20mg, sublingual. Waited 2 hours. Absolutely nothing happened.

This was old as fuck MAL so I was a bit afraid that somehow it was expired. So of course, like every other idiot, we took another 20mg sublingual.

Another 30 min. Slightly good mood.

Meh.

I took another 20mg. I offered my friend but she didn't want to.

So 15 minutes later we were just listening to music and vibing, we had some pretty starts and nebula type of projector. Then suddenly a really good trance song plays and it hit us like a truck. It felt EXACTLY like coming up on M but way faster. Like the process was done in 1 minute.

From here on we were dancing and just having a good time. I feel cold. I put on clothes. I feel hot. This process happens again and again.

Here I still feel in control.

At some point we just start laughing like crazy for no reason. Full on good vibes etc. 30 min later I start having some psychedelic moments. Certain objects seem ... strange. They call my attention. Some things start looking a bit spooky, like out of place.

For science I take 10mg more.

Here the psych part gets stronger. I would say 80% of a medium mushroom dose. By the way, the M-like euphoria is still there, but tbh, I think it made me even more confident than M

We go smoke a tiny bit. Is just some mdphp mixture I did with some liquid. Not strong. We smoke, don't feel much rush or anything. 10 min later, I start feel some ..... entities. I don't see them completely, but I can feel their presence around me.

They are calling me to the dark and spooky part of the house.

Personal context:

I have always been a bit afraid of psychedelics because of this. I have this negative part of my brain when on them that sometimes snowballs. Maybe is related to my ocd (that I have under control right now but still), so I get afraid of not being able to stop bad thoughts and letting them ruin my mood.

But again, I need you to understand, the insane, euphoric, MANIAC-LIKE, confidence that this thing gave me.

So all that, that fear the psychedelic part the ocd part and the confidence-mania mixed.

The results was fucking hilarious and ridiculous.

More context:

For both this type of snowballing panic, and ocd, I have been practicing amplifying the fears and ocd instead of running away from them. I put them in the forefront of my mind and make the anxiety as bad as I possibly can. When is it in peak, I ask it: So what? How can you think you are stronger than me? What is it in here that I cant face? This, even while sober, creates a huge amount of adrenaline in me. I try to follow with my body too, where I just grin or laugh and put my body in an open position (arms open instead of closed etc) to put my entire body and mind in a confident/fight position. I know it sounds a bit ridiculous but if you have panic disorder or ocd I think you can understand. For panic this is pretty similar to the DARE method. This is the ONLY thing that has worked for me. No icbt, no erp, no trying to ignore it, nothing has worked as well as this. I need to run towards the danger or I get worse. This has worked for me even while sobber and is the only thing that stops a snowball.

So the psych part got worse and worse and the entities became a bit more physical, like dark shadows. And so, with my maniac like state and this new strategy I am doing I just went to the darkest part of the apartment to get this over it with. And there I felt completely in control, like the entities were afraid of me lmfaooooo. And with slow body movements I just passed through everything, went to the kitchen to get some food and told them to fuck off.

And they left me alone for the rest of the trip and any type of negative psych element stopped.

If this was not mania than jfc what the fuck is proper mania. I felt like I was god himself

We continued partying. Smoked some more.

Potential mistake

My legs started shaking like crazy. I felt insanely insanely euphoric. I had to take out my shirt and my friend too. She wasn't naked but with a bra I think. For context, she is my gf friend. Yeah this part was dangerous ...

The touch of everything felt insane. Anything. I was laying on the floor and I felt melting into the floor. She got some olive for us to eat and I swear I closed my eyes and came with my entire body.

I am nodding off and we just end up cuddling up (nothing more) and touching each other a bit and it feels like the best thing in the world

Dont remember much more, then I passed out.

Woke up, went to a free bed in the apartment. Slept 8 hours more. Woke up very sober but still insanely euphoric.

Got slightly moody 8 hours after that and went to sleep. Woke up today feeling good.

So that is it folks. I am not sure but I think the MDPHP potentiates that shit to an insane degree. It was the most insane euphoric and psych experience of my life. I absolutely fucking loved. It was peak drugs for me. I haven't tried 4mmc or 3mmc so idk, but the rest of drugs basically yeah.

Sorry for the lack of order and detail. If you have any questions let me know!!

I FUCKING LOVE MAL