The only disso I did before today is 2f-dck and that was 4 days ago. It was kind of a let down but that's not what this post is about.

I've been feeling a bit under the weather for the last week but I wouldn't say I'm sick. Yesterday I blacked out after taking 3mg bromazolam and drinking 7-8 shots. Yeah I fucked up big time but when I woke up I wasn't really hungover, and had the day off so I decided today would be the day I try dmxe.

I had ordered 10 40mg pellets last week. I started slow, taking half a pellet. After 20-30 minutes I felt some whooziness but nothing spectacular so I did the other half. 20 minutes later another and than one more and to top it off, I took another half. So if the pellets are dosed right, this would be 100mg.

I was feeling great, there where moments where I could barely move but I felt no bad effects at all. I honestly believe that at one point I could've gone into a hole. But I messaged a friend and he was on LSD so we decided to get on discord and talk/game a little. I was completely fucked up, it took me 10 minutes to figure out how to get my microphone to work, and I've been using discord for years.

After a while I started coming down and I felt just a tad of nausea. As I got more sober, I realized I didn't want to be sober yet. So about 2 hours (I think) after my last dose I took another 20mg. After 15 minutes of not feeling the come up again I said fuck it and took 80mg at once. That's where my bad trip began.

After a while, no idea how long, I started to feel pleasant again. This didn't last long though. I think after 15 minutes of feeling good I got completely overwhelmed. I started getting a little anxious, I slowly got nauseous and felt super fucked up and weird. I sat on my knees for like an hour, barely able to move, asking myself why the fuck I took so much. It got a little better after a while and I stumbled to my toilet where I put my fingers down my throat and threw up to relieve my nausea. After that the effects slowly started to go away but even now I feel weird and kind of sickly but I'm getting better.

I just wanted to share my experience and maybe read some of yours if you made the same mistake I did. I'll be fine obviously, but this is the worst any substance has made me feel (besides alcohol). Which is sad because the first peak was super fun! I'm going to use dmxe again for sure but I'm gonna show it some more respect.

I think I'll stop using any substances for a couple of weeks, I think my body needs a rest. And so does my mind.

Edit: I just checked my stash. I didn't use 20 80mg at the end, I used 20 120mg. So I used 240mg in 4-5 hours. I definitely went overboard, even more than I originaly thought.