Hey, all good? Maybe this post can help me and others about our 3mmc (3cmc) consumption and life overall. In my case, I only use drugs for two specific scenarios: techno parties, and chemsex. I usually do either of them once every 2 weeks, and sometimes, once a week. I've never done drugs alone (ever in my life), so it's more of a "social" thing to me.

The 2 drugs that I've been doing are the following:

a) GBL, from that website which sends you a cleaning product with a red cap, 99% of the product and 1% of cellulose; and,

b) 3mmc from one of those Dutch websites, which is supposedly 3cmc and not 3mmc in real life.

I would say that whenever I've done both of them for techno parties (let's say, from 1 am to 7 am) I didn't notice any relevant issue afterwards. I guess I would do (in total, throughout the whole night) around 5-6 ml of GBL (many times less) and around 0.5g of 3mmc. Later, I'd go back to my house, probably stay awake until 9 am, and then I'd fall asleep. No redosing, no cravings, nothing. No relevant side effects during the following days either, let alone weeks (besides some typical G holes I was in during consumption, but they didn't bother me much).

Nevertheless, I began doing more 3mmc (and more GBL) during sex parties, and instead of going for the whole night, let's say, from 23h to 6h, I started going until 11 am, then 2 pm, then 8 pm, and a couple of times I've been awake for 2 or 3 days, non-stop, and this type of 3mmc consumption has indeed started to affect my life in the following ways:

i) Erectile dysfunction. When doing a bit of 3mmc at raves, yes, I'd get a stim dick, but when I was back at home my dick was fully functional again. Hence, I think 3mmc killed my dick while doing it, and maybe for 2 hours later, but after that I was back to normal. However, the more 3mmc I've done (for longer hours), the more it has affected my dick, to the point where the last time I took 3mmc along with G from Saturday around 18h to Monday at 1h (so around 31 hours), not only I couldn't get hard at any point, besides all the Kamagra I took, but I couldn't get hard for 1 or 2 days later. In this case, I went from the 3mmc killing my dick for 2 hours, to killing it for days, which also affects my confidence because imagine being at a 20-hour sex party and not being able to get hard for a second. Super uncomfortable (and pointless).

ii) Hurtful physical consequences. I always snort 3mmc, and the last time I did (which was 2 weeks ago, when I did it for 31 hours), I had awful health and physical effects afterwards. I developed a throat and nose infection, where my throat would hurt A LOT every time I'd even drink water. On top of that, I also developed canker sores, my gums were extremely swollen, and the tip of my tongue would hurt like HELL. That was the worst part. Due to the GBL, I had diarrhea, and on top of everything, I had an eye infection cause I didn't take my contacts in 3 days and I didn't wash my hands. The pain coming from my mouth lasted a full week, so I couldn't eat properly for 7 days and my gums hurt so much that I swear I wanted to take all my teeth out. It's been weeks already and I still don't feel fully recovered from all this (my throat still hurts a bit despite all the throat pills I took, the nasal sprays and all the stuff that my doctor prescribed, because yes, I had to go to the doctor 2 times in 3 weeks due to the multiple infections).

iii) Decrease of libido. From what I've realised, after doing 3mmc for long sessions, I'm not horny at all for 2 weeks. That's the amount of time it takes me to get back to "normal", or at least, sort of. In that regard, it's a vicious circle because after you do 3m, you think that the only way you'll get horny again is by doing it one more time, but at the same time, you know that if you do it again, you won't be horny spontaneously for 2 weeks. And well, on top of everything, you're horny but you can't get hard so...it doesn't really make sense to do it in big quantities, I believe.

iv) Regarding mental health issues, I've always had depression and other stuff, so I'm not really sure how 3m has affected my mental health. I guess not much, I'm just as depressed as I've been forever, so yeah, nothing too relevant.

In this sense, I have many questions in mind and I'm not sure how to tackle this issue. Some ideas:

• Never snort 3mmc again and only do it orally (to avoid the cravings and avoid ruining my respiratory system again)

• Never do 3mmc for longer than 10-12 hours, otherwise my dick will be dead forever

• Never do 3mmc for sex parties (only for techno clubs), unless I'm at some final stage of the party where I don't need my dick to be hard anymore, but still, never snort it, otherwise I'll want to go for many more hours

• Replace 3mmc for another drug, which I don't know what could be. I've thought about weed. Maybe I should become a stoner? I don't know. Coke doesn't do much to me, Ketamine isn't my thing, Speed just keeps me awake but I don't feel "high" nor horny, and MDMA you cannot do it often and it's too strong for me, so ... maybe I should just go back to reality and quit drugs in general? (well, I can keep GBL). I'm not sure about what to do, and I therefore just wanted to share my story and also know how you guys have dealt with 3mmc, and the alternatives you've found to do it reasonably or in any case, to stop doing it. Thanks!

PS: A bit off-topic, but should I convert my GBL into GHB? Are there any relevant consequences of taking some ml of GBL every 1 or 2 weeks? Thanks.