So I had been talking to this girl for awhile and I thought things had been going really really well. She was very sweet and our text conversations were very... emotional(?) and deep. I'm not someone who falls for people easily at all and am generally very reserved and guarded. I let down all my guards for her and even told her as much. We tried to meet but due to holidays and then me getting covid we couldn't so we continued to talk. Things got sexual and were mainly initiated by her, even though I certainly was willing. I was a little hesitant because I was afraid of how it could affect our relationship in the future but she was into it so I thought it was fine.

I was very vulnerable to her, which again isn't something I normally do and she was vulnerable back. I told her in the beginning I'm not normally a very avid texter but I would be texting her every day multiple times including good morning and good night. I came under some stress at work and combined with not feeling great (bronchitis from covid) I wasn't texting her as often. She mentioned that she was feeling sick at work and was going to crash when she got home. I told her to rest up and hope she feels better. That was the last text she sent me. After texting her a few times after, I realized she had blocked me. No goodbye text, nothing.

I was devastated. Still am. In writing this it's helped some but I am heartbroken. I can't find enjoyment in anything. The bengals won their first playoff game in 3 decades the other day and I was happy for a little bit but that quickly subsided. I just don't understand how she could cut me off like this so coldly. I know we had never technically met in person but we had such amazing conversations about the future and we saw eye to eye on so many things. I really don't know how to get over her. Every time I have a spare moment my mind just goes back to her and I just feel so damn sad. I'm also nervous about this impacting potential future relationships and me putting an even bigger guard up unfairly to future partners. It just hurts so much.

tl;dr: Girl ghosted and blocked me after talking and having intimate conversations for nearly a month with no warning. I'm heartbroken and don't know how to get over her. Please help.