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When we started dating, he wanted to see his friends every saturday, and wanted me to come along. At first I was ok with it, but then it became too much social interaction to me, and I missed being only with him more often.
However, he wouldn't change his schedule because of me, claiming his friends were just as important as I was. We spent friday nights together, he saw his friends on tuesdays, thursdays, saturdays and sundays. Each day he met different people, but still it was a lot of time dedicated to his friends.
So, I felt less important to him, as I wanted him to spend more time with me and he was always so busy with his friendships. Also, he would often complain that I wasn't talkative and funny enough, that I had to be louder, to speak more, etc. I'm an introvert, I do have friends, and I liked being around his, but I simply wasn't (still am not and believe I'll never be) like that.
So, that was our second problem. It became such a huge thing that one day he said he felt ashamed of me whenever we were with his friends, and that he didn't want me to hang out with them anymore.
And then he stopped inviting me whenever his friends were around, and would often make up lame excuses for me not be with them, to the point that I wasn't invited to his own birthday party.
After the birthday party I was completely enraged, and broke things off with him. He apologized and compromised to do better, and after a couple of months I accepted to give the relationship another try.
He truly did stay loyal to his word and we are fine now. My issue is, I still have a problem with his relationship with those friends. Whenever he mentions them, or is with them, I feel angry, it's like all those feelings of being less than them to him come back instantly.
A couple of hours ago he texted me saying he was on a video chat with his friends, and I felt awful just to read the message. I am sure it is because of this specific group, because I feel completely ok when he mentions or goes out with other people who aren't the ones I felt second to.
And now I feel angry and sad again, not at his friends, but at him, to the point that I don't even feel like meeting him on the weekend as we were planning to do before. I'm sure if he didn't mention those people I would still be missing him and wanting to see him soon, as I was just before that message.
Finally, my questions are: is it ok to feel like this? And should I talk to him about how I feel about his friends? I wonder if this talk would make any sense at all, as it's been some time (three years already) since our break up, and he's already apologized a lot and truly compromised to be more attentive and dedicated to me. I don't know if I should bring the subject back once again, or just try to deal with it on my own.
Thanks a lot in advance for your replies.
EDIT: As some coments stated that I feel angry at his friends, I just wanted to stress that I haven't said that at any point in the post, I like his friends, the problem is that I fell angry at him, for making me feel less important to him than his friendships were. When he mentions them, I get back to this feeling of being less, and not being accepted as I am, even though he's changed his behaviour.
TL DR: I felt second to my bf, he compromised and changed his behaviour, but I still feel angry whenever he mentions his friends.
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