Ever since a house party in May we've been texting every single day. The thing is, I'm the first guy she's been with since her previous relationship, which lasted 2,5 years. We visited each other twice a week, it started with regular dates but later it was just hanging out and being with each other. We loved spending time together and I thought this was meant to be.

So 4 weeks ago, I asked her what she thought of being in a relationship with me. In all fairness, it already felt like we were in a relationship. We shared everything with each other and the time we had together was just so loving and all that. She explained to me that she didn't want a relationship because she wanted to be free after such a long relationship. At that moment I felt heartbroken and didn't really know what was to happen next. After that conversation we still hung out and just had a good time together, like before.

I just couldn't do it anymore though... knowing that she didn't want to be in a relationship. So yesterday I asked her what was to happen next, cause it's been causing me so much stress not knowing what our future would be. It came to the conclusion that she still didn't want a relationship. I couldn't do it anymore. It affected me in such a way that I was constantly hurt because I knew there was no future.

Right now I don't know what to do anymore. I can't imagine not seeing her anymore, but we agreed that it's best for both of us if we stop seeing eachother. Today we laid in bed and cried all day because we knew it would be the last time we would see eachother. I just don't know what to do or feel. I've never felt this sad and knowing I won't see her anymore hurts so much. I love her and I just don't understand why she doesn't want to be with me anymore. Im sorry for the incoherent story but I just wanted to get this off my chest.

TL;DR: the girl I love doesn't want to be in a relationship right now because of her previous relationship. I don't know how to cope with not seeing her anymore.