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We had a conversation where we both decided that we should go our separate ways. It was a bit relieving, but also very painful.

I talked with some people that I trust, and hearing someone else that knows us well recognize the circumstantial challenges that we have been through and are going through together (financial, relationships with people that cut us out because of their MLM, married young, opposite work schedules, having a child early etc) really are playing a huge role in our relational demise.

So what do I do? I tell her that I'm not ready to separate and want to put in more work. That I don't feel I can confidently walk away knowing we truly gave 100%.

I fucked up.

I have been trying to win her back the last week, but she just told me last night that she is 100% done and moving out and getting her own place.

I am an emotional wreck, and yes I'm aware of my wishy-washy ass, but I have been consistently trying to win her back the last week. I honestly feel like I've killed her. She's not the same person. She's so cold and emotionless and set on being done.

I can't shake the pain and the guilt knowing that this was mostly my fault, I've hurt her and been an asshole, and now she is completely indifferent to me.

Have any women been in a similar situation where your husband was begging you to stay and did? Or didn't and why?

Any other input or guidance would be greatly appreciated.

tl;dr: Decided to split. Realized I fucked up, and it appears to be too late.