The cycle 1. I meet an awesome woman 2 I befriend awesome woman 3. I find out that I have a small crush on awesome woman. 4. I tell awesome woman about crush. 5. She rejects me. 6. We remain awesome friends.

Currently in my life this cycle has occurred about four times. I’m not really enthusiastic about this process. And I would love to skip from step 2 to 6. How do I do that without feeling like I’m bottling something up? I’ve tried skipping steps before (like from 2 to 6) , but it always ends up with me. Acting really weird or jealous when she ends up with someone else. It’s not something I’m proud of. I really don’t like myself when I do that.

If I wish to be platonic with someone consciously, I wish that my feelings could also adjust to that reality.

The woman that I currently have crush on has already told me that she’s not interested in dating. That information was gotten through like a game of truth or dare. But it wasn’t like a direct rejection. I’ve been trying to get it through my head, but like emotions around her are like hunting me lol. Reddit any ideas on how I can squash this and remain friends with this woman ????

TLDR: how do I remain in the friend zone, with a sense of closure/without getting the woman involved.