So some background. We've known each other from school days. Im 36(M) she is 35(F).

We both have a pretty bad history with drugs, toxic relationships and just poor decisions/bad behavior in general.

We both use to cheat on our partners but when i got engaged in 2021 and got cheated on for 8 months it broke me!

And for the 1st time i was on the other end of the situation and it changed me!! I took a year to recover and better myself. I truly made life decisions of things i will never do in a relationship again and to be the best man i can be to my next partner.

So then we swiped on each other on tinder. And there it all began. I knew that an addicts life and behavior won't change just because she met someone.

So I gave her my trust from day one and had to deal with all sorts of behavior that most would consider as red flags. But I just knew I had to stay with her. That we were meant for each other. It's now 2 years later....

Yes there was drug relapses (meth)and manic outburst from her. Extreme verbal abuse. But I forgave and moved on.

I've been loyal, respectful, honest and showed her with my actions that I'm committed and that I try to treat her like a princess. Yes I'm not perfect but i put her needs ALWAYS 1st.

Got married. In December. Obviously believing that we love, trust and respect each other.

Our whole relationship she always questioned my intentions of everything I said and did. AND NOW AFTER WE MARRIED SHE STILL SHE DEBATES THE PAST AND DOESN'T EVEN CONSIDER RELIEVING ME AND WHO I AM.

So what now? What do I do now? Keep on being pure hearted and kind/gentle.... nothing is reciprocated. Or what? My heart is broken.

I even forgiven her after she walked 6 months with a secret that she cheated on me in the first 4 months we started dating.

TL;DR: is it worth it to keep on fighting or just give up after everything ive done for her and went through. Should continue trying to save the marriage? Or like her just stop caring?