tldr: been talking to someone online, more of a fwb set up. he suddenly left me on read and it's been 2 weeks since. i haven't developed any feelings naman pero i still miss him somehow kasi we vibe and i'm really attracted to him din. chat ko pa ba?

ًًlengthy post ahead because i wanna give as much context as i can pero mostly dahil madaldal ako. 🤠

i met someone last december and it's nothing serious naman kasi pareho kaming takot sa commitment so landian lang. he mentioned na parang fwb kami so ayun, casual lang talaga. sa tg lang kami nag-uusap ang we only know each other's first name, actually. i want to ask him for his socials sana pero nahihiya and baka rin kasi ayaw niya so i never brought it up.

we'd chat everyday pero maikli lang and mostly para lang maging constant ang pag-uusap namin ig? pero minsan we'd leave each other on read kasi busy or wala nang mapag-usapan, ganon. still, halos araw-araw yun kahit a few messages lang. dumadaldal lang talaga kami mostly pag taglibog na HAHAHAHA had SOP twice and, ayun, ang saya-saya, kuya will. 🤗 we vibe pretty well naman kasi may similar kinks din kami and bet naman namin ang isa't isa. (he's tall and good-looking, my type. i'm short and cute naman and trip niya raw kasi yung mukhang "inosente" or basta di halata na malibog ganon lmao.)

we're open to meeting up din naman pero nothing's been set in stone. binabanggit lang namin na we want to see each other in person na. i told him na i'm down whenever, it's mostly up to him talaga.

anyways, nagkakamustahan kami sa acads non and he left me on read. that was almost 2 weeks ago. miss ko na siya ngl, pero hesitant to hit him up ulit kasi:

1. ako na nga yung huling nag-message, ako na naman magre-reach out?

2. most probably, busy sa acads yun so i don't want to bother him or come off as clingy (i don't think i have been naman so far. altho maybe i made myself a little too available¿ idk basta mabilis ako mag-reply and mapa-oo kasi HAHAHAHA pero minsan naman pinaghihintay ko rin sha naks)

alam niya rin naman na i don't usually initiate conversations kasi nga ayokong makaabala, pero okay lang naman daw sakaniya. pinag-iisipan ko talaga if i should reach out ulit kaso napakaindecisive kong nilalang talaga kaya, ayun, pinaabot ko na rin ng ilang linggo kasi urong-sulong si anteh. 😅

anyways, ayun. baka na-ghost na talaga ako. idk why tho. pero i'm still debating if i should message him (on a day na wala siyang classes).

i don't really do this kasi nga as i've mentioned, di naman ako nagf-first move and may fear of rejection na rin so i'd usually just let things be. pero idk wala namang mawawala sakin and i just want to shoot my shot ulit ig? kasi i really do like talking to him since we click on a lot of stuff naman and type ko rin talaga mga anteh HAHAHAHAHA ampogi tapos ang ganda pa ng boses eh 🤼‍♀️

i'm not looking for a relationship naman and it's not that deep, gusto ko lang din po makatikim ng luto ni lord. 🙏 emi HAHAHAHA

yun lang po. feel free to share your thoughts, insights, advice, or prayer template. thank u saur much.

nagmamahal,

ًyour lambing-deprived girlie