I (33m) and my wife (33f) welcomed a son last year. My wife is a I've person, a wonderful spouse and a natural mother. She loves the baby with all her heart and has been so full of joy since bringing him home. I however want nothing nor than to go back the way things were before he was born. We used to sleep late on weekends, take vacations and just generally had very little stress in our lives. I haven't slept well since last year, haven't had a quiet night with my wife in the same amount of time. On top of that I'm stressed 24/7. I look forward to going to work so that I have a break from this baby. I loathe every Monday when my wife goes to the gym in evening and I'm home alone with him until after his bed time. By all accounts he's a great baby. Every person I know that is a parent remarks on how easy he is and his mom loves him completely. I don't love him at all. None of this is easy for me, I don't think it's great and I'm have I think I ruined my life. But I love my wife and I agreed to this before hand thinking I'd love being a Dad. We tried for several years to have him and the whole time I was expecting to like being a Dad. It hasn't happened. I'll never abandon, abuse, it neglect this child because he deserves a good childhood, and I would never leave my wife; she's my whole world. But this was a mistake and I hate myself for how I feel.