Can you please stop editing your terrible comment and adding worse things, ty

Yeah I've been a lot happier barely drinking!

I guess so? Like you mentioned most people are younger who are still doing it, though I know people in their 30s in that life. I miss when it felt fresh! But that was me from like 18-29 until the pandemic hit, basically. No longer have the same interest, I guess.

Idk I don't feel like that though, like I'm not bored - I feel more content and at peace, and I'm not looking to fill up my life with entertainment. Just appreciating the slowness, though also feeling kind of weird about it / not sure when I started losing interest in all the things that used to drive me

You’re right, that judgment didn’t need to be there.

There’s just a lot of change in the air, maybe

Art pursuits are definitely not sad! Creativity is not the greatest thing in life for me anymore. That change is what’s pretty strange for me.

I assumed into my 30s I would just be writing an lot and making other kinds of art, continuing to be part of certain scenes and wanting that and it’s just dropped off. Trying to find my footing I guess

Yes exactly, it does feel like a kind of betrayal! I knew I would probably lose interest in the after hours stuff over time, though I didn’t think I would with lots of other things. I mostly wish I lived somewhere with a lot more nature and trails around now, it’s weird for me.

Yes - I really like how cozy my life is now. At the same time, the drift feels a bit strange... and most people who knew me would probably see me as pretty boring now. I really enjoy taking walks and looking at flowers and sleeping in early. I used to love going to see bands and also afterhours parties, and now I just can't be bothered, similar for gallery hopping/etc. Also don't care at all about being part of a "scene" anymore as I used to be

I don't feel like it sucks though, some people are misreading...

I feel more like a real person than ever before tbh, this isn't it

I don't think staying home and doing projects sucks, never said that. Just not as meaningful as it used to be

I might suck now though in some ways, yeah

I mean, I was doing these things because I loved them - always have had a minimal social media presence/I don't give a fuck about the validation. I loved being immersed in art and music and going out! I loved traveling and exploring new places. Maybe it will come back in moments, but I'm really slowing down lately in many ways.

Your comment did inspire me though (especially the part about piano) and was beautifully written, thank you