I have struggled with alcohol my whole adult life and finally kicked it. Because of a comedy of errors- or more so a bunch of really stressful events the past couple of weeks, including husband losing his job and my car getting damaged in a hit and run, I dipped into my personal discretionary fund and got us a night away at a cheap hotel with a whirlpool tub because we really needed a break for a night away from our 10 fur babies. He still drinks a bit, not often but a couple of beers a week which doesn’t bother me, so I bought him a small bottle of alcohol to enjoy tonight. I got myself some coca-cola and fruit. I got a whiff of the alcohol, which was formerly my favorite kind of liquor, and gagged and asked him to keep it on his side of the bed. We lounged in the tub and watched South Park.

I’ve gotten through some really tough shit the past few weeks and now had an absolutely lovely, rejuvenating night with him without really having an urge to drink. I don’t feel on top of the world, but I do feel a newfound sense of hope and optimism. I have had bad days and good days but I haven’t really had the urge to drink.

For the first time in my adult life I feel like things are on an upswing. There will be more tough times, and we aren’t through the current ones yet, but I don’t want to poison myself. And that’s the greatest gift I’ve ever given myself. This feels like a superpower and I’m so proud of myself.

No matter where you are on your journey, don’t give up. I tried to quit drinking countless times and this time I think it will stick. My whole life has been persevering and trying to get better and learn as I make mistakes, and I think that’s what finally got me here. I’m still early but I’m counting my days, and my blessings.