Honestly every other night I still crave it, then I kinda rember how awful I was and felt. I did cocaine for two years straight, I lost my job, girlfriend, and my family. I eventually quit cold turkey, went to a couple NA meetings but other than that I just thugged it out. I relapsed two or there times and every time I did I would lose another job.

Eventually after losing 3 jobs in a row I fully quit and every month has gotten better for me. I started to work out, got into new hobbies, But I still feel a pit in me I want a rush in my life. The cravings don’t seem like something I would ever act on, they are very minor. But maybe im wrong maybe something awful could happen in my life and I fall back into it. I’m still taking it day by day but I just don’t feel the same after going through that addiction. Things are going pretty damn good for me so I know it’ll just keep getting better but still I would love to rail 5 finger thick lines right now.