I've been small framed and short my whole life, and growing up I never got into the typical masculine way of presenting myself. To be honest, I thought that the whole "masculine behavior" thing was off-putting, mainly because it scared me, especially the aggressive and violent sides of it. When I became a young adult, it still scared me, but at the same time I also starting to feel some attraction to it. Like... I could walk in the mall with a friend, and I see this muscular guy in a store, and I could think "wow... if that guy wanted to, he could so easily overpower me. And I could do nothing about it, except scream". And besides feeling a bit scared, I also felt a bit aroused. The thought of being powerless, not being in control, being at the mercy of someone else, was intoxicating.

I started wearing girlish style clothes in my teens, while still staying mostly in the androgynous gray zone. Then eventually, when I felt a bit more adventurous, I started to move more into the feminine side of clothing. But never too slutty, and always just a light touch of makeup. I think I found the sweet spot between a boy and a girl, and the looks I got from men confirmed that. Their eyes, and sometimes a bold comment, made me feel like a pray. And I both loved and hated that feeling at the same time. Not sure how I can describe it any other way...

I've followed this sub for as long as I can remember, and often see posts that I can relate to. Girls showing how vulnerable they are, and maybe even showing more than that, and making some comment like "oh, I sure hope that no one will break into my bedroom just when I'm getting undressed...". Like, inviting in trouble, even though they know that it wouldn't be good for them. I'm exactly like that. The idea of me deliberately or by stupidity, putting myself into a scary and possibly dangerous situation, where I might get abused and raped, is so scary, but also.... crazy hot.

But not having seen much femboy or trans girls posting here, and neither seeing many (any?) doms/predators who are open to them, I'm curious. Guys, what are your views on femboys and trans girls, in the context of rape fantasies? To me, it's kind of hot to imagine most guys being willing to rape/fuck me, thinking "a hole is a hole", while not being interested in being in a real relationship with me. It's a degrading thought, and I have realized that I secretly enjoy feeling humiliated and degraded. Like, not only is my body violated, but at the same time I'm being ridiculed and taunted for who I am... A true rape of both my butt and my mind... omg...

Lay it on me guys! And if you feel like what's on your mind might be interpreted as trans/homo-phobic (for people who don't wear the "fantasy roleplay" glasses), then feel free to be as rude as you want to me in a private message lol...

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