One of my closest friend makes me think of my rapist. Weve tried so many times to stop talking to eachother but it never works. We always end up back to eachother. But no matter what every time my we leave eachother after hanging out I have a relapse and have a breakdown. But when were around eachother we help the other.

He left mine and my bfs apartment about 30 minutes ago and I had a breakdown and still am in one. Even before he came to my house and I knew he was coming over I had a breakdown. I felt my rapist. It was and is all too real.

My bf still doesnt know how detrimental my friend is to my mental health. I dont know what to do at this point because my friend would be devastated (and maybe even attempt) if I stopped talking to him.