So first of all, this'll be graphic, so tw for stuff.

In the many years that Ive.. done stuff to myself, I've never bled. When I recently had sex for the first time, I didn't bleed or experience any sort of pain. Is that cause for concern? Like should I be worried, could that be evidence that something did indeed happen to me when I was younger? (If you look at my profile you'll see I worry abt this a lot and I have good reasons).

I might be overthinking it. If I am I feel terrible. But it does worry me. When you have sex for the first time.. aren't you supposed to bleed.. aren't you supposed to feel some sort of pain??? Idk. I just.. I'm honestly searching for any evidence I can get bc I have no memory of my childhood... :( Please help.