Idk if this is S.A. or rape or manipulation but basically when I was around I think 7 to 10 I was friend with an older boy by three or 4 years and one day we were in his room for a sleepover and his mom was asleep and we were in the sane bed because it was a queen and he started rubbing me there a little while I was falling asleep and it felt really really good so I just acted like I was asleep untill like 5 or 10 mins I felt like I was about to cum and I held for as long as I could but I eventually busted one of my first big ass Nuts. He noticed within like 30 seconds and whispered "(my name) I can show you way more than that and make us feel really good baby, I promise" then he went into my pants and starts jacking me off and I sat up and said ok ig I'll do it. ( mind you I was under 10 I discovered sex and stuff early at like 6) and it was my first time and I never thought of myself as gay or bi or anything. And so after we started jacking each other off and then blew each other then we side fuckrd and doggy style fucked each other. We continue to do this every sleepover for like 2 years and nobody ever knew and but he started stealing my things and not admitting to it and he started being aggressive when we had sex and shit. Then i had to move amd I haven't seen him since. I still struggle with my sexual identity because of this a lot what do yall think? (IF fbi sees all hypothetical never happened).