I'm still trying to process this and it seems to impact my daily life. 2 decades ago older friends in my (29m) neighborhood, a sister and brother, took advantage of me in various ways. The sister was the main antagonizer(?), and did mostly everything. She would use me infront of her brother and have him do humiliating things. This went on for months without suspicion from my family.

Over the years I have developed quite a few ticks and fetishes, interest in things I don't think I would have been interested in otherwise.

These events Kickstart a few issues: a heavy porn addiction, my abusers showed me a lot of porn which was the first I had seen of it. I am still struggling with porn addiction. I am still hypersexual to this day, something that is a struggle and has gotten me into some issues.

I don't know what I need. I recognize the parents were the problem, as it was all learned behavior. Given the time it happened right at the start of my puberty you can imagine the shame and guilt. I don't know how to heal from this, but I think talking about it public for this first time will help.

Thank you for reading, anything helps.