I am so confused and ashamed about this and have been for years. I was date raped by a guy I met online. We went on a few dates and we made out on the 2nd date. The 3rd date was at his apartment. He made a nice dinner and I had a glass of wine. We began to kiss but he began to get too aggressive. I told him that I needed to go home but he forced himself on me and defore I knew it my skirt was up around my waist and my panties were torn off. I begged him to stop at first but then I felt myself starting to have an orgasm. He could tell so he did it harder and faster until I came hard and I was moaning so loud. WTF??? He kept going and it happened 2 more times. Then he finished on my stomach and I just was in shock. He told me that he knew I would like it once he got started. I didn't like it but then why did my body betray me? I have read about this happening but I have only found a couple of sources about it and nothing about the total mind fuck something like this brings about.

EDIT I want to thank the people who have been so kind and gentle with your words and support. To the pervs out there about to DM me, don't be such a grody creepy creep person.