The same thing always happens to me, my cousins try to make me socialize only for to be ended awkwardly every time I sit with their friends there are always awkward silences or me trying to talk with said friends (which ends horribly btw)

I guess the problem is that I don't share the same preferences as them and the opposite is correct, I always try to fix this problem but it makes me wonder if you change your preferences doesn't that change who you are as a person, I don't want to change (or rather I'm afraid of change)

Also, I have this problem that happens to me every time I talk about something that mildly annoys me I tear up a bit, and I despise myself for And I can't help to get rid of the feeling that I am a disappointment of my social butterfly of a dad.

These are just simple problems of me and my every day life, there are worse things than that