I have very little friends, and despite trying to make new ones, I fail at every turn. On my days off, I spend them wasting gas and wandering aimlessly. I'm not trying to oust everyone, because there are some genuinely nice people, but I don't know them enough to hangout with them. It is so SO boring here, I'll try to find something to do, but I never can. Don't get me started on how hard it is for me to get a girl to notice me, and I don't mean "friend-zoned" shit, I hate that term. I mean I actually state my intentions, but treat them like a human being, but most I've tried to talk to either just quit talking to me or go after someone else. It's really killing me. I have severe depression, and have all my life. I don't find joy in anything, and the most lively I am is when I'm at work, because i'll at least have human interaction. I just don't think i'm going to be able to take the rest of my life, doing this. I'm insanely sad all the time, but completely indifferent, and it kills me. I just want to get the hell out of this shithole as soon as I can, somewhere, anywhere but VA.