Fuck this stupid body that has done nothing but betray me for years.

A month ago I went septic out of nowhere. I had found a pea size bump like an ingrown hair and within 3 days almost died. They cut a huge chunk of me out to keep the gasious gangrene from spreading any further.

I see the surgeon wed. To start the skin grafts.

Guess how loud I screamed bloody murder when I went to wipe from peeing and found the exact same kind of lump/cyst that started this fucking nightmare!!!!! Just now! After peeing all day a bunch of times and it not being there until now.

It has to be addressed like now now. If it decides to do the same thing the last thing did it has no more room to spread. It's in the very very very tiny bit of space I have left between my vagina and the huge gaping wound. I'm in so much damn pain from the healing of this last spot and I get a new one thrown at me. And once all the offices I could call to see what to do is closed. I'm fucking losing my mind .

FUCK THIS STUPID FUCKING BODY. ALL IT DOES IS HURT AND BETRAY ME. FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK. I JUST CANT TAKE ANOTHER THING. AND NOW I GOTTA WORRY ALL NIGHT UNTIL THE DR OPENS . I FUCKING HATE THIS GOD DAMN BODY. FUUUUUUUUCK.