I was born with two defects:

Being born as a female

Being Black

Being Black in the US is the most fucked up experience anyone can go through, yet they make it like racism doesn’t exist. It’s really tiring, I do wish I was another race, I know my life would’ve been way much easier and I’d be respected more throughout my life.

I would be okay with being black if it didn’t have so the negativity to it, casually be degraded and shamed towards on any platform or groupchat you speak on because they know no one will stick up for you, you’re on your own.

I would be okay with being black if the people in my area would hire me on how my resume looks and not hire my skin looks. I’m tired of America saying they don’t discriminate yet I’ve applied multiple times to that one restaurant (they would always accept me for an interview because of my name) I’d go in and of course no one of my color working there, just two certain demographics. It’s tiring, I’m tired.

I would be okay with being black if most of the men in the community didn’t treat black women like shit. It’s gotten to the point where other people of other races are pointing it out. I had someone tell me “shut tf up monkey not even your own men like you” and he was right, majority of them don’t, and if they do you have to be a certain you’re of black girl. They always go for white girls, latinas, biracial and black girls if they are light skinned.

I really hate this world and I know why now why I don’t want to date and why I don’t want to marry or have kids. I wouldn’t want my kids to grow up in a world where they are hated just for existing, people wanting to kill you just for your skin color, being a target when all you’re doing is minding your business. I’ve seen way too many black men die and black mothers crying over it. Black children being overly sexualized, many of them going missing or being mistreated. Other races of men treating you like an experiment and your own race of men treating you like a joke. Just wanting to impregnate you and nothing else.

Why would I want a life like that?