I'm sorry if this isn't allowed. I just now had a a breakthrough on my life. My whole life I've been told to do the best I could. I was such a high achiever that I was able in high school for 3.5 years and scored perfectly on both the sat and act. I could have gone anywhere and done anything. But my whole life i struggled with what I wanted to do. Because of that my family told me that I should go into the trades because I didn't know what I wanted to do. So I stopped caring about grades because it no longer was necessary to me. I got into the trades at 17 and now I'm 24. I never based my life off of what I wanted, always what other people wanted. I have a constant need to be perfect. Everything I do, if it's even a little off makes me lose my mind. Work, relationships, pets, money, etc. I realized I've been working towards someone else's dream because I've been taught to want certain things like nice cars, vacations, retirement. But if I did certain things like buy a new car or move into a nicer place I caught flack from family and friends. So it would trigger my perfectionism. I just now came to the realization I want a family. I want 2 or 3 kids. It's definitely achievable if I quit spending money on stupid things and pay off my debt. But I don't know how to kick the perfectionism. I feel like as long as I feel the need to be perfect I'll never be happy.