I'm a 20 year old male. Who is very introverted. A max 3/10 in looks who's had only really horrible experiences with women. My first cheated on me and she sent me a tape of them doing it. My second passed away from cancer. I then had a bunch of just only wanting hookup girls then my last one she was amazing and perfect and 10/10 on looks I don't know how I did it. All she ever said was I treat her right show lots of love and try hard for the relationship. But yesterday I found out she not only was dating another dude but she was dating 2 other dudes. I found out About one and he told me he found another. So I talked to her and she blocked me. I just want someone I can tell them I love them. And hold them forever and not worry about cheating. But every time they aren't that. I'm still a virgin at 20 waiting for the one and I'm starting to think better do things well I'm young but I only wanna do it with the one yet I can't ever find the one