I am afraid of what he will do or say. Recently he posted a picture of himself on social media with a gun pointed toward his head. Nmom didn't take it seriously, said he was, "Just making a joke and trying to be funny" so, thats set in stone that they are both narcissists and enablers of one another, and extremely codependent. A concerned family member called the police for a wellness check and they took my dads handgun away. He will have to appear in court to be able to get it back, so he said he is "just going to let them have it" as opposed to facing what he did.

My parents are so fucking far gone. They constantly do awful things or say awful things and I am so tired of it.

If anyone wants to keep me company by chatting or anything tonight I would welcome nearly any distraction at this point as I take refuge in my room. Dinner will be in bed tonight, again. Alone.

I feel so helpless and I hate feeling this way.