Ive been remembering. It would happen to one of my siblings as well. If we were hurt physically or emotionally and showing it in the face. Whether it be in public or not. My mother would flip her shit. Telling us to get rid of that face, she doesnt want to see us like that. That we dont have the right to feel like that. After putting her through shit/whatever bs she felt was violated. Or that we have nothing to be upset about.

Makes me realize why im so stoic now. We would also have to accept her apologies on the spot. There was never any time feel upset or grieving. If you didnt accept the apology then you were labeled immature/childish. I have very little contact with her now. I live alone. But im still left feeling so fucked up, conflicted, unable to get past all this shit. So much time wasted feeling feelings that werent necessary.