I always played a character to avoid being sucked into one of my parents “lectures” that would last usually over an hour of them telling me how I wasn’t good enough or was too irresponsible or disrespectful. I fucking hate that word disrespectful. They would sit me down and berate me for any reason and leave me with no self confidence, confused and upset. Fast forward now and I’m a full grown adult of 24 that still doesn’t know who he is or how to find myself. I feel like the world doesn’t really exist or like this is all some kind of simulation. I don’t know what to do to move on from this I moved states and I still feel so damaged.